“…these two boys were making terrorist jokes about me. They said something like, “she might blow up on you, man…” Everyone heard; I was humiliated and wanted to stop wearing hijab. In gym class, a girl had sexually harassed me. She would say explicit things, grab my face and ask me why I was Muslim. She told me I should get naked. I had to crawl under a stall away from the shower where she pushed me in. Nobody bothered to help; finally I told some adults who took action.”

Assalamualaikum; I have been a revert for five months. I grew up in Mexico believing in the trinity, although I always questioned it. The church wasn’t working for me so I went to my high school’s library and found the Quran. It had everything I was searching for and more. My family thought it was a phase. I would practice Islam very late at night and sneak out the house with hijab. Finally, I took shahadah when I was just 17; I felt excited and nervous at the same time. I wore hijab openly and even prayed at the beach without a care. People wouldn’t look me in the eye, even cashiers. My family occasionally makes Arab jokes, and at school I was harassed. My school has 3000 people with only five hijabis; I stand out since I am the only Mexican Muslim. Once, when I was minding my own business in the halls,

these two boys were making terrorist jokes about me. They said something like, “she might blow up on you, man…” Everyone heard; I was humiliated and wanted to stop wearing hijab. In gym class, a girl had sexually harassed me. She would say explicit things, grab my face and ask me why I was Muslim. She told me I should get naked. I had to crawl under a stall away from the shower where she pushed me in. Nobody bothered to help; finally I told some adults who took action.

Apart from that, there were plus points to wearing the hijab. In hijab, men let me walk by without honking horns at me. I feel beautiful and so empowered.

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  • Nour  says:

    You ARE an inspiration. Truly.
    I am really sorry for everything that happened to you due to converting. I am an Arab Muslim so I don’t really know how it feels, but I went through some bad experiences myself during my visit to the UK. I want you to stay strong, promise me. Don’t let all the jokes and harrassment bug you, you are a strong, smart and powerful girl and you have the right to choose your religion and believe in whatever you want. You cover your hair, and not your brain.
    I don’t know if my e-mail shows, but please feel free to contact me with anything. I would LOVE to be friends <3

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